#they wouldve all died and nothing would be left

[tossball-stick]

yesss oh my god!! you have no clue, i was also thinking that when dutchs father died his community disappointed him.

i like to think that realistically they just didnt support him and his mother in a way he liked or cared for. frankly i think it would make a lot of sense if he and his mother fell on financial troubles with his father out of the picture, and likely the community came in to help with housework/chores/food. dutch wasnt seeing the bigger picture, and thought the only solution to their situation wouldve been money.

this couldve even been the reason he left-- fighting with his mother over all this.

itd make sense why hes so prone to giving out to the poor, and why his downward spiral starts speeding up when the gang starts struggling financially after blackwater. its why he hammers faith and loyalty so hard after they start having money troubles, too. thats what caused him and his mother to separate. with people starting to die, too, it would be a complete reliving of the situation that drove him and his mother apart; his family shattering. he built a new family, and now theyve suffered loss and financial trouble, and they too will be driven apart.

(it also would play into rdr's love of repeating cycles.... just saying..)

and about his aversion to, yet romancing of religion, like you mentioned, i think this would play into that really well too. if you think dutch has narcissistic personality disorder (i dont use that term loosely, i mean it in a genuine medical sense, as much as i believe in psych) too, it would make a lot of sense if he didnt reflect on the issues he had with amish christianity properly. he saw the only issue as his community refusing to help him in his time of need, hyperfixated on that, and analyzed nothing else about his own beliefs. he didnt realize that the issue was foundational.

when he got into the world and started becoming his own person, with his own circle, the only thing that changed was his focus on money and like. some other small things. he still has the foundational issues of amish beliefs at his core, even if hes putting his own woke spin on them.

most of this is just spitballing lol but. i have a lot of thoughts

gooooood morning party people today im thinking about how dutch van der linde could very well be amish and how well that would wrap his character up in a neat little bow. i mean. one of the main things he values is classic living, hes a midwest dutch-american immigrant in the mid 1800s, he has a deep obsession with knowing how the world works (as if he had been sheltered from it in his youth), he talks about having complicated relationships with family after having left home, his constant hammering of hard work and faith as honorable values, and the fact that he went off to create his own cult-like group after a while.

[kaseyskat]

also i swear to god people better use some fucking media literacy with this episode like i swear if i see anyone being mean to sparrow it's on SIGHT

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

comes home dying in the most oppressive suffocating painful purple light you can imagine

[reallife6anoufriev6boy6]

nikitas version (fanfic)

includes noncon, necro, vomit.

i said, honey, I don't feel so good, don't feel justified

come on, put a little love here in my void

he said it's all in your head

and I said so's everything, but he didn't get it

i thought he was a man, but he was just a little boy.

nikita was over top of artyom, hands covered in a thick, messy layer of blood.

he earned a harsh shove, yelping as the boy below him pushed him off with ease.

nikita is quick to stand - a new found rage being all he could feel. it wasnt fair, nothing was. he didnt deserve to get stuck with someone who would hurt him.

however, at the same time all he wanted was him. he couldnt imagine being with anyone else - he satisfied a hunger no one else could.

a deep, overbearing hunger that couldnt be fixed with any meal. something that embodied his own sick desire and lust.

he turned away, going to grab the hammer that was left alone in the snow.

his hand hovers over the handle, unsure of what he even wanted to do.

the hammer was speckled with dried blood and matter he couldnt make out. it was a good friend of theirs that had been there since the beginning.

he ultimately picked it up - his hold tight on the handles black grip tape. it was cold and wet from the snow.

nikita turned back to the blonde, walking over.

his boots make prints in the snow, a mark that would be covered with time.

he stopped right in front of him, looming over him like a serial killer in a horror movie.

however, he just stands there and looks at his friend.

artyom was propped up on his hands and elbows, having sustained enough injury from nikita that he couldnt get up on his own.

he stared up at him with these big, round baby blue eyes - wet with tears of his own.

blood ran down his face, originating from several different sources, but his nose seemed to be the biggest issue - crooked and pouring blood.

nikita had no idea how he had done this. he would never think about doing this a day in his life - he didnt know he even had it in him.

he listened to the blonde sniffle - even his hair had been stained red. it was pathetic. he wouldve never let this happen to himself.

he looked <helpless>.

nikita had wanted a man to love - had mistaken artyom for one.

but he really was just a little boy under all that anger and violence.

he says something, but he doesnt hear it. everything sounds muffled.

after a moment his own rage and anger dissipated. he wasnt doing this for himself, he was doing it for artyom.

he was a mess that he couldnt clean up. it wasnt him undeserving of this, it was artyom.

before he can think, hes already over top of him again and all he can hear is the sound of metal against his head.

the crack of his skull was deafening - the died out sobs and pleas were another thing, but he still couldnt even hear those.

the area around them turns to an eerie silence, the only sound now being the repeated thud against his skull and brain matter.

he slowed to a stop, not even realizing his own tears that had streaked down his face.

he pulled the hammer away and stared at the bloody, disfigured mess. it was sickening - he felt like he could puke.

he stared at the skull fragments and bits of brain - his once blonde hair was now <soaked> with red and now half his face was gone.

nikita stood up as quickly as he could, stepping out of the way before he gagged and puked onto the snow.

he hadnt eaten anything, so it was just stomach acid. it made his throat burn and eyes water more then they already were.

he lets out a shaky exhale, but quickly vomits again.

he could handle it every single time that it was someone else - all the people theyve murdered never left this much of a mark on him.

he forced himself to get together, wiping the puke and tears away using the back of his sleeve.

a sick thought runs through his head as he looks back over to the mangled mess that was once his friend.

he swallowed hard, returning to his previous position. he sits over his chest, legs on either side of his body.

he was gone, he was dead, there was nothing more nikita could do about this, but he wanted him one last time.

he reached his hand down and unzipped his own pants, sticking a hand down his boxers and pulling out his cock.

he shivered from the cold air hitting him, but he does his best to ignore it.

it was disgusting that he was beyond hard. he didnt even realize it before now.

he doesnt want to waste time though - he wants to get this over with and be done.

he slides forward a little more and takes hold of whatever was left of artyoms head, hesitating until he eventually stuck his cock into the others brain matter.

he shuddered, grip tightening on either sides of his head. the still warm, wet feeling was wonderful although it made him sick.

he decided not to look down, instead keeping his gaze forward.

its an awkward start, pulling out and shoving back in.

he tries to find a pace and thankfully does, going slowly but quick enough for it to be pleasurable.

he felt so perverted for doing this. it was sick and disgusting and awful. he was a terrible human being - if you could even call him that.

he picks up the speed just a little bit, biting down on his lip. it felt so good and he wished it didnt.

he wished he didnt have to do this. he wished he could just be normal - he didnt want to do this, he didnt want to kill his best friend and then violate him right after.

but either way he continued. he felt so much guilt, but the slick slide of his cock against the brain matter was all he could focus on.

he lets out a muffled groan, shoving his cock in particularly hard. he pulled back out and shoved it in the same way.

it was pathetic how he already felt like he could finish. itd barely been more then five minutes and he already felt the building need.

nikita is more animal then human, though. he gives in.

he shoved in once more, not being able to help the moan that slipped out, before he spills his cum all over the inside of his friends mangled head.

the afterglow was barely there. he didnt feel satisfied or pleased - there was no hazy or euphoric feeling to be had.

he doesnt even wait to come down completely - instead getting up faster then he could comprehend as he stuffed his dick back into his boxers, zipping up his jeans and stepping away.

he hesitated, but gave his friend one last look.

the white mixed with the red and pink was certainly a sight to see. he didnt want to just leave him here, but he didnt have a choice.

he turned without another thought, and started to walk back.

the quiet, serene forest was a stark contrast to what had just taken place. almost a cruel mockery to what horrors nikita inflicted on artyom.

but it didnt matter, nothing did.

he would have to move on and pretend nothing happened - he would know nothing about this when asked where artyom was. he would know nothing if he was ever found.

he would keep this to himself for as long as he lived.

[ninmnoi]

— Stop, you’re losing me.

mingyu x reader || angst.

summary ; trying to save an already failing relationship is a lot harder when he forgets your birthday.

(not proof read lol)

⋅•⋅⊰∙∘☽༓☾∘∙⊱⋅•⋅

Its your birthday, you’ve never made a big deal about it tell you met him. You still remember his shocked face and loud “WHAT” when you told him you dont found your birthday a big deal, its just another day. Ever since then, he always celebrated your birthday in fun surprises and dinners. He made it so important and meaningful for you, and the big part of that is because you know he’ll be there.

So your nothing short of despair when its past 5pm and he hasnt once messaged you. It’d be another thing if he just didnt message happy birthday, you wouldve been okay with goodmoring.

You sigh putting your phone down, bitting your lip as your eyes water. It shouldnt be this serious, you’ve never even cared about your birthday before, so why dose it hurt so bad now?

Mingyu

That god damn Mingyu.

He used to be such a soft spoken soul, aiding to your needs as you do with him, those first few years of your relationship. He confessed to you in your own backward, he put his effort and time into it. You can even smell the flowers that lead to Mingyu, see the lights that brightened his soft smile, that swift hair and tall figure standing nervously fiddling with the bouquet in his hands. And who could forget the blush that tainted his face and ears, tears threatening to jump out after you said “yes.”

Now, your even lucky if he stays with you a whole day. Its always this or that driving him away. When he left your sisters engagement dinner because a friend of his needed help moving in, or when he canceled a date because he forgot a “really super duper important project” as he said. The nights he wouldnt call, the empty king bed. The second toothbrush that hasnt been moved in 2 weeks.

It drove you insane, but you still gave him the benefit of the doubt.

“Maybe he’s busy”

“Hes probably sleeping”

“God his phone must’ve died”

Your friends would yell at you over text, spamming you with the reality check you needed, but never could deposit. After pacing around the kitchen trying to ignore the cute cake you bought with a sad candle slowly sinking into it. You pick up your phone and call him.

Ring…

Ring…

Ring…

*click!*

Did he just hang up on you..?

No, he would have to be crazy.

You call again.

Same fucking thing, even quicker just 2 rings in.

You open his contact info, trying to see where his location would put him.

“No Location Found.” You curse, what is he hiding? Your mind leads to the one scenario you’ve been dreading, infidelity. The thought of him cheating makes you wanna throw up, but sadly its a most common event. You’re just so done with everything, putting the cake away into the fridge and changing clothes. Its now 6:42pm and with the major headache you have, you simply decided to sleep it off. Hugging the build-a-bear Mingyu bought you a year back, it muffles your sobs, soaking in the tears.

It’s cold and dark when your awaken by an extra weight adjusting it’s self onto the right side of the bed. You recognize it all to well. Mingyu pulls the covers over himself, giving you a small peck on the tip of your ear.

“You’re home” you say, your drowsy and hurt voice clear.

“Yeah- im sorry im so late” he whispers to you

“There's cake in the fridge”

“Cake? For what”

You sigh, “My birthday”

You can hear his breathe hitch.

“Fuck- Baby im so sorry. I didnt mean to forget. I was just so bus-.”

You sit up.

“Busy,? from what? So busy you couldnt even text? Because clearly it wouldnt have taken as much time as hanging up on me and turning off your location did. So if ‘busy’ is some new slang for ignoring then that makes way more sense.”

“I didnt even know you called, i swear. My location should be on babe.. I” He mumbles on

“Then whos hanging up on me? Making sure i dont know where your at? Is she fun?”

Mingyu’s eyes widen

“What are you talking about?”

“Her, you know.. Is she attractive? What is it huh? Skinner than me? Or maybe blonder? Or is because you dont need to be responsible for her?

“Baby no, its none of that.” He grabs your shoulders.

“I love you, calm down”

“How can i?” You exclaim, jumping off the bed.

“You missed my birthday! I waited for you like some stupid dog! I felt so stupid.”

“I dont understand, birthdays were never that big of a deal for you”

“They werent until you made it a problem! Now look at me” you say, the tear stained face and puffy cheeks evident.

Mingyu gets up, walking over to you.

“I know ive been distant, let me make it up to you”

“Where were you tonight?”

He stays quiet for a moment, taking a deep breathe

“My friend he uh… invited me to a club” he quietly says.

“Oh. Okay.”

“Okay..?”

“Mingyu, get out”

“What?” His heart drops.

“Get out! Did the club music deafen you?? I want you gone” You yell, tears streaming down your face as you push him out. Though you have little to no affect of moving his body, it makes it all the more depressing.

“Okay…Okay..” He quietly says, grabbing his phone off the dresser. Looking down at you with remorseful eyes. His heart aching at the messed up state your in. And its because of him, god.

You slam the door behind him, locking it. You sigh before faintly walking back to your bed.

And theres your build-a-bear, ready to be hugged and to soak all your tears again.

Atleast, that comforts you.

[veevei]

DAWN IN THE ADAN

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ch 25: minecraft

yn rushes back to her dorm after she just got a text that the stream would be starting soon.

opening the door from her 15 minute sprint from the coffee shop to her dorm —why did she even go get coffee and an egg and cheese sandwich at 8pm?— doesnt matter anyways as she turns on her laptop

“i should get a better laptop.. maybe a pc when i graduate..” mumbling to herself while texting maki, not even bothering to tweet a stream announcement. toge and yuji probably did it already anyways.

yn joins minecraft and the proximity chat with nearly everyone in it. they were still waiting on one more person, megumi. whatever

she continues eating her english muffin which is nearly finished by now. once shes done megumi finally joins the call. yn puts down her phone which she was scrolling on pinterest on for minecraft house ideas and starts getting blocks.

this wasnt a speedrun anyways, theyll probably play again soon. while yuji and toge are doing their own thing— killing mobs, mining, actually progressing — yn was barely done either getting the wood for her house.

she was pretty quiet for the stream because of how tired she was. not because shes sleepy but because of classes. whenever shes not in class shes either studying or streaming, sometimes alone sometimes with her friends. she only got rest on sundays and fridays, this week looks like its going to just be friday.

even though she was with her friends she still felt alone. toge and yuji were trying to speedrun the game, and maki was pretty much doing the same thing yn was doing but with nobara following along, yuta was mining, he was still talking on stream and had some energy left. megumi was.. what is he doing?

maybe maki and nobara will become better friends. thats fine, nobaras nice enough.

hours later they go into the end and kill the ender dragon. this is boring. shes nearly done with her house and hasn’t spoken to basically anyone after the end. right now everyone is trying to kill eachother—more like yuji and toge trying to kill everyone— and yn still hasnt gotten above iron armor

she heads into a random strip mine that yuta probably dug in the beginning on the game, after 20 minutes she starts to hear a voice. she turns around to see nothing. the voice is probably coming from above her anyways. before long she starts getting hit by what she thought was a zombie. she turned around and started immediately hitting megumi.

“oops sorry. i thought you were a mob” yn says while giggling. “thats my fault anyways. do you have any iron?” megumi asks yn. “why?” yn says while checking her inventory, not that she needed to. she knew she had atleast a stack of iron by now.

yn throws him the iron. “i didnt say my reason first, i could be trying to kill you, you know” megumi says. “are you trying to kill me?” yn retorts. “nah, kay bye. thanks for the iron”

“no problem”

by the time she gets to the surface most everything is either on fire or covered in random cobblestone. no one had died yet but yuji was chasing after nobara screaming about how she killed his dog.

yn laughs to herself as she starts to travel back to her house from spawn. she made sure it was far away just because she did not want her house to be burned down by toge.

when she checks her chest she finds that all of her diamonds that she got from the end city were gone. probably yutas or makis doing, toge wouldve destroyed the house down the moment he saw it.

yn crafts herself a suit of diamond armor and a diamond axe from the diamonds she just minded and she heads back to spawn. 5 minutes later she starts to here yelling, she sprints to yuta asking where her diamonds went. “yuta! did you take my diamonds? i had like 7 but now theyre all gone” “oh yeah.. i thought that was makis house.”

yn gives the deadest stare to anyone who was still watching her stream, they all probably moved to yuji or toges because they still somehow were talkative.

“whatever”

by the time yn makes it back, she sees yuji and toge scavenging in her house. how did they even find it? it was like 700 blocks away from spawn, she thought that was far enough. atleast they didnt burn it down yet.

STUPID BABY WAS SLAIN BY YUJI

“MY CAT WHAT THE FUCK YUJI” yn yells. yuji gasps and says “THAT WAS YOURS?” yn gets her axe and immediately starts hitting yuji “THIS IS MY HOUSE WHAT DID YOU THINK??”

“i thought it was makis!! STOP HELP, HELP ME TOGE”

toge had already left the moment yuji started killing her cat.

4 hours later yuji and toge are being killed for their crimes. right after that the stream ends.

“that was fun.. i think atleast.” yn mumbles to herself as she shuts her laptops, clearing the food and drink off her desk. she glaces at the clock.

1:47 AM

damn it.

whats up guys

this ISNT proof read.. at all

egg and cheese english muffin are so fucking good

1 breakfast food DONT PLAY WITH ME.

yn and megs first interaction???!!!

25 ch deep 😭🙏

i hate this

i haven’t started ch 27 yet… 😕

spiderman across the spider man reference

“givemeamin” how cute he put it in one word yk kids these days

idk what he said but it was smth like that

everyone thinks yns stuff is makis

bye

yns english muffin 🤤 yns inspo from pinterest

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[saturnxlust]

Sighhhh this is a shit post cause i have nothing else to do🫶🫶

John Marston x Fem!Reader

Hes a interesting lover

He isnt that bad but hes not like amazing

I imagine he was a good dad for the most part to john but i dont think he’d want another kid

If you do he might just shove jack in your arms and let you take care of him for awhile

Jack is a sweetheart though🫶🫶

I dont think abigal could really complain about their marriage other then the fact he ran away for about a year and constantly left for days at a time without telling anyone

If you have a problem with that he might just shrug and offer to take you with him

But if you decline and ask him to stay home with you hes not too keen on it

Most of the time its usually missions dutch sends him on that take days but there have been a few occasions where they take a week

When everything went bad with the gang at the bank his first priority was you and jack

He wanted to get you out of this life and run away like he had before blackwater

He knew everyone would be counting on him and arthur to keep dutch sane though so he begrudgingly stayed

When arthur, dutch, javier, and micah go missing its chaos

He goes practically insane not knowing what to do

He also heavily mourns the loss of his “adopted” father hosea

He shuts down almost completely and relies on you for almost everything

Most of his days are spent in his cot wishing for them to come back, that is until you join him

He gets distracted by you almost enough to forget hes lost his 2 father figures and his older brother figure

Micah he doesnt really care about, never understand why the man was so sour all the time

Javier he misses, mostly wanting him to be at the camp to bring everyones spirts up by playing a song

Secretly sings one of javiers songs while working by himself

When they finally come back hes never been happier, but while he was slumped in bed he was imagining hosea would come back with them and that they had grabbed his body to keep him alive

When thats not the case he cries

Genuine tears fall from his eyes that night as he holds you and goes through the grieving process all over again

It took some words of encouragement from arthur to get him up and moving the next day

When dutch and micah flee leaving arthur and him and a few others to deal with their attackers

He doesnt let you out of his sight

Not wanting you to get hit in the crossfire

Once everything was over and you all were safe again he never left your side and his hands stayed on you at all costs

He feels like if he isnt holding you and constantly around you then something will happen

When evrything goes bad and arthur dies? Oh god

You thought he was bad before

Hes awful now

He starts crying as soon as he finds out and if your off doing something he immediately seeks your comfort

Walking up to you and holding you while he cries into your shoulder is the only thing he knows to do right now

When he eventually calms a little hes gone

Lost almost completely

Theres not much you can say without him breaking down again so you decide to be silent

Holding him and running your hands through his hair

He falls to his knees infront of you and his arms wrap around your wait as he cries into your stomach

His hat is long gone somewhere but it didnt matter to him

All that mattered is that his best friend and brother was dead and there was nothing he could do

He wished arthur had told him sooner

He wished he had read the signs after micah began calling him black lung

He wished he had gotten arthur medicine

Even if it wouldnt have helped much it wouldve done something

And then the anger sets in

He gets up abruptly and walks away

Beginning to throw and punch things, nothing at you

Not even close to you

He screams and curses micah and dutches names

Feeling betrayed by those he once called his family

Once the anger leaves he breaks down again

Sobbing and shaking as he reaches out for you, silently begging you to do something to fix this

You just walked over and held him in your arms, letting him fall asleep against you

The last thing you remember seeing is him snoring softly in your arms as you leaned against a tree

Falling asleep yourself after being so tired of being on the run

God knows what happened to the rest and may god keep them safe is the last thought that rings through your head before you fall asleep with john pressed against you

Oh my god i didnt realize how in depth i went with his grief😭😭

[cutely-inserts-my-opinion]

im back again to drop more ship thoughts

ik a lot of ppl like to make sunvant/lord eclipse sweet and fluffy but they have SUCH toxic potential

like eclipse literally killed and revived sun repeatedly. he couldve revived any other person and killed them (specifically moon bc we know how much he hates moon) but he chose sun

like. they would have such an unhealthy attachment to each other. its physically and emotionally abusive with a power imbalance. but i also feel like they need each other. its like a parasitic relationship. if eclipse dies then sun dies. if sun dies (permanently) then eclipse dies. theyre like stars circling around each other until they eventually collide and explode.

eclipse may have the star but he lost everything after the witherstorm and exhausted himself. all he had was sun. sun was his entertainment, his only source of attention and worship, a loyal toy he could play with freely. what would he do without sun? what would he have left? a dead world? a star thats slowly eating him alive?

sun is only alive bc of eclipse. he only exists bc of eclipse. his purpose is eclipse. he is nothing if not a servant. hes nothing without his god. he is a mere speck compared to him. he cant live without eclipse. if eclipse isnt there then neither is sun. without the star sun would die. sun wouldve died a long time ago. and he should appreciate his lord for letting him be in his holy presence. to keep him alive when the others were long gone

something something they cant live without each other despite how they tear each other apart something something

anyway im done being insane... for now :)

:o

Holy shit-

You're so right for that. Toxic codependent yaoi <3

[eye-coded-rat]

ABSOLUTE SPOILERS FOR TMAGP EP23 UNDER THE CUT

Early access episode released at midnight for me and I listened 3 times before going to sleep I am invaded by THOUGHTS

read at your own risk!

These thoughts are all related to the post-statement section between Celia and Sam btw!

Jonathan "cycling accident" Sims and Martin "some kind of heart thing" Blackwood what the HELL happened to you.

The casefile says 18042024, so the episode takes place 18th of April 2024 and "they died, separately, nearly twenty years ago." so c. 2004 maybe 2005, and these two were "close to the right age" which I guess depends on how accurately Celia could remember/describe they're ages.

Going off of TMA (born c.1987) they would have been somewhere around 16/17/18 when they died,,,,, which is really sad especially for HEART PROBLEMS?

in TMA (mentioned in MAG056) 17 is when Martin dropped out of school to take care of his mum, and nothing notable was ever mentioned for Jon around this age.

also thinking about the fact that this Jon never wouldve encountered the spider book :))) this universe probably had some other horror in store for him but. still. i choose to believe that without the Web being present in this universe he had a perfectly normal relationship with spiders. TMAGP's version of webby horror goodness better not have touched him (however the entities choose to manifest here, the alchemy / the desires, they better have left this poor boy alone)

Also Very Much looking forward to possible Basira and Helen (is she... you know...) (that's actually kinda funny,,, if the only other person (besides Georgie) Celia can find is Not-Spiral-Helen and finds out she was a TERRIBLE person before joining Michael Distortion and is like "nah nvm, I don't wanna know you here, spooky Helen was better")

also also, was talking to my sister about the episode and who else Celia could bring up,,,, if they find Basira will they find Daisy? and will she still be "Daisy"? could it be an Alice Tonner with no childhood spook encounter that scarred her and gave her the nickname? or something wacky related to this universe's spooky shenanigans gave her different childhood trauma that resulted in the nickname. the possibilities are endless

BUT for my very last Also, seeing Gerry and "Gee Gee" I will totally convince myself everyone is Happy Here. Jon and Martin HAD GOOD LIVES BEFORE THEY DIED LET ME BELIEVE THIS.

[grimmons]

OK i present to you:

A crack-treated-seriously S19 Fix-It Grimmons Fic by a person who has not watched past S2 of RvB and is not an RvB fan by any means - (spoilers for s19, if you haven't watched it, shoo)

It was over. It was all...over.

Griff would leave now there was nothing left to do,to survive against,to fight.

"....You could still come with me",Griff's soft tone pulled Simmons from his thoughts. Why hadnt he..gone yet.

"...I cant do that"

"I know but. If you ever go to earth. You know where to find me"

"You know that wont happen"

"Well. Yes but hypothetically. You know where"

Griff was probably smiling under his **Color here** helmet. A soft dorky smile that sent Simmon's heart racing each quiet night he saw it. A smile just for the two of them,a sight that he would never see again. A sight that was his alone in all the vastness of space. His world swayed around him.

The base would be so quiet. If he wished it if he asked him too he might be able to ask griff to stay. Maybe he could be selfish and hold onto him. But....this is all Griff ever wanted;to go home. Simmons couldnt pull that away after granting it.

Griff turned his back and it all felt so real. All these facts plagued Simmon's mind at once. The ever present reality crushing him under its weight.

Sarge was gone. He had to honor his legacy. He had to do right by him. But...was...was this right?

Was this what Sarge would want for him?? What would he even do in this vast canyon now empty of life.

Griff took another step before being stopped by Simmon's hand on his wrist,he turned to look back at him.

"....Yeah?"

"....Im going too",Simmons breathed out. His voice was shaking,barely a whisper. Griff had to strain his ears to catch it.

"Really??? Okay drama queen let's go~",pure joy entered him. Home AND Simmons best deal yet!

It took some paperwork but not long after they exited the spaceship,stepping on Earth's soil for the first time in...so long. It felt odd really. But they could carve out a life here.

Part of that life was house hunting in a... pretty damn bad market. Simmons groaned settling down on the hard plastic chair. It hurt his butt a little.

"Alright. Lets see how shitty this food is shall we?",Griff laughed settling down in his own seat as he set the kfc in front of him.

"Cant be that bad. Cant be worse than when Sarge made his chili",Simmons laughed but the mention caused him pause.

It had been so hectic in settling down he....hadnt had much time to think on Sarge.

Griff laughed meanwhile,setting the 4 pc. Chicken meal in front of simmons. Only to pause and stare. "Simmons?"

Simmons looked up,giving what he hoped was a convincing smile. He didnt wanna ruin the mood and they were both tired from house hunting... this hope was shattered by the next words from the other's mouth

"Are you crying?"

It broke. It all broke in a slightly dirty kfc. How pathetic really.

When someone dies it leaves a hole. Its an acheing,stinging hole too wide to fill. It was definitely not something now kinda soggy chicken could fill.

His tears were falling into his food and all he could do was wish it was Sarge's shitty southern chilli.

Simmons vaguely registered a hand on his back but he didnt react only crying more. What was he crying about? This was rediculous. He could hear Sarge telling him to keep his chin up. It was a good day. He had so much to look forward too afterall.

But he also had so much to not. It was never coming back. He didnt regret leaving the base but now there werent even familiar locations. No lingering traces of the person who was missing. Sarge was basically his father he... what if he and Griff got married?

They had talked about it. But... if they did Sarge wouldnt be able to participate. He wasnt sure what sarge would do but he wouldve found out if he wasnt dead.

Why is he thinking of all this in a kfc??? A damn kfc really??? All because he thought of some chilli. This was bullshit. He vaguely registered Griff talking softly - gently ushering him out of the restaurant to cry in the car.

The end.

[moonlit-dreamers]

Can you rate all TSAMS characters?

oh dear lord- i can certainly try tho i get the feeling i'll forget some lol

in order of favorite to least favorite

sun - 10/10 - hes perfect, nothing can change my mind. hes heavily traumatized and incredibly anxious. hes the perfect specimen for whump AND hurt/comfort. im also just Heavily biased

ruin - 9/10 - yall cant fight me on this hes one of my favorites. hes a tragic, morally gray villain that did what he thought he had to. hes a sad pathetic wet cat of a man who i bet all my money on (a whopping 500 bucks) that he doesnt even know who he is as a person

eclipse - 9/10 - him being below ruin on the list means nothing bc theyre equal in my heart. again, tragic wet cat of a man whos too damn tired to deal with this shit any more. i also relate to him in ways that probably arent healthy <3

solar flare - 8/10 - BRING MY BOY BACK HE DID NOTHING ‼️

dazzle - 8/10 - sweet baby girl she can do no wrong

jack - 7/10 - he can do many things wrong but nothing could make me hate him forever <3

molten - 7/10 - he baby. he sweet. he dont know the world and thats okay. maybe i just like it when murder machines turn into pacifists and just want to have fun.

dark sun - 7/10 - he fascinates me. i want to put him in a lil test tube and study him under a microscope. i need to ask so many questions, most of them being some form of "what is wrong with you"

computer/spaniard - 7/10 - we dont talk about the previous 2 computers we dont care about them (i dont hate them im just biased <3) i only care about SPANIARD. i miss my boy why did they have to kill him he couldve been so good. sun needs his husband back/silly

old moon - 6/10 - he is... certainly a specimen. i keep bouncing between "i hate him i want to rip his head off" and "im wrapping him in a blanket so tight he cant breathe". before he died he was an absolute prick and the fandom ruined him for me bc everyone fell for his manipulation and blamed sun for shit moon did and bc i was so biased towards sun it was difficult for me to not hate him. after he came back hes more fun (and tolerable) due to him actually improving but i wish he had more set-backs bc like. to him he'd been dead for like. a week. he should be struggling more <3

earth - 6/10 - cant quite pinpoint it but i Do feel like she could be done better as a character. she... doesnt really change that much? idk how to describe it. maybe i just find her boring lol

solar - 6/10 - yes i am putting him this far down on the list bc i feel like he couldve been done SO much better. he has so little flavor it hurts. what are his struggles? what is his goal? what does he even do outside of sun n moon?? and dont even get me STARTED on how little his past is brought up in a meaningful manner, let alone be something that effects him. you could say "oh hes gotten better" yeah but we saw none of it so like?? fbkdsgnjkds i'll need to rant about his character another day smh my head

killcode - 6/10 - it was fun while it lasted or something like that. he was interesting and i Do wish they had just.. left him alive? not bc he would be "useful" or wutever but just bc like. wut if he wants to come back randomly? like he wouldve just been a fun side character

nexus/new moon - 5/10 - listen. i dont wanna put him down here. but his current arc fucked him over. he was so fun and whimsical before! he was just a silly lil guy trying to navigate the world around him and desperately trying to fill a role he couldve never filled. his current arc couldve been SO much better. but its not as emotionally charged as it could be. like. they just completely threw away his original motive! and now he doesnt care?? not even the slightest??? booooo tomato tomato tomato throwing tomatoes/ref

lunar - 5/10 - again, you can fight me, but current lunar just isnt it for me. lunar before he died? hell yeah. he was such a lil shit that only cared about stuff if it benefited him. he didnt care that he was hurting moon with his movements, he just switched sides bc moon actually paid attention to him. him and bm couldve been SUCH a good duo too OTL

bloodmoon - 5/10 - honestly i liked v1 bm more than v2. idk man. something about their energy was so different and it lured me in. v2 kinda just felt.. boring. no critiques on his character, just not for me *shrug*

gemini - 5/10 - i dunno. just boring to me

monty - 4/10 - yet another moment of "no direct hate on the character just uninteresting to me" with monty. theyre just. boring. also another moment of "i liked them before [insert event]" with the event being before earth.

the creator - 4/10 - just. meh? he could be better as a villain but hes like. been here for so long that i wonder if he really does much of anything? idk man. im losing steam atp dnf,jsdgndkj

this might be all of them..? i dunno. probably missed a bunch (and yes im aware i shoved in some laes characters shush). im gonna leave out eaps characters so this doesnt get longer and so i dont go on a hate rant about puppet/j

[devdevlin]

hello! hope ur doing well :>> just wanna thank u for making peremo! it's such a wonderful piece of written work. the dialogue, the prose, the characterization of the two leads, the way the dynamic was fleshed out, etc etc everything! was so engaging! u weaved a tale that had me SEDUCED. i love how slow burn it all was!! tom had to see these intriguing sides of her bit by bit, that hermione had to get pushed into it, before he gets to form an obsession!! i was hitting that next chapter button like a fool crawling back to a paramour that i would gratefully allow to step on my balls (pls excuse the crass & nonsensical metaphor).

i'll try to keep this as short as possible omg (narrator: she did not, in fact, keep it as short as possible) but there's so much to love in peremo! like:

noncon/dark fics that feature a megalomaniac that underestimates the grit & acuity of the seemingly unremarkable female lead GETS meeee (rare as it is). like u rlly hit the nail on the head in depicting that aspect in peremo! every time tom succumbed to that crazed "who tf are u!!" state i was like clapping & pointing at my phone leonardo di caprio gif style. every time they got into some fucked up homicidal tom (tom) & jerry (hermione) ass scenario: standing ovation! i love it! bc as much as hermione is traumatized & is the constant recipient of the short end of the stick, tom cannot go on without her either !!! he didnt think she'd have that gorilla grip pussy on her but SURPRISE BITCH ! SHE'S UNDER UR SKIN !

hermione! love her!! im not even an hp fan lol but i love how she was written as flawed & unhingedly determined. the sexual assault scenes actually made me sob (a testament to ur power as the writer!). when she had that breakdown after almost flinging herself off the roof, hoo. boy. i was in pieces.

ur commitment to the darkness of the fic! that hermione in the worst-case scenario (letting an abusive man in her household that she fought tooth & nail to build, having him get his hands on her son, having all her sacrifices mean nothing in the end) is all so tragic & kudos to u for taking it there. im too much of a weakling :")) i wouldve sprinkled in some corny psychoanalysis just to somehow justify tom forming a suggestion of an affection towards klaus & their family cause i gots to soften the blow. i see ur vision & i admire it very much.

anw! thank u, thank u so much! i was in a depressive rut when i read ur fic & it rlly helped lift my spirit :)) i hope ur always well & best of luck in all that u do!

P.S. if u are in the mood for entertaining questions, i'd be in ur debt for the answers to these:

how'd u think tom would respond if somebody (perhaps klaus) asked him if he loves hermione?

i wonder how differently tom would treat a daughter? (ik ik, probably just the same but hey, a lady can have her girldad! tom delusion, right?)

how do u feel about peremo-inspired fics (w/ proper credits ofc!) ??? i've read the amazing ones on ao3 but i wanted to ask just in case! & ?? would it be alright if the depiction/interpretation of peremo tomione is slightly different from urs, like the same but slightly to the left & a bit sappy with it lmao

Oh my lord thank you so much for this anon! I read this at 4 am and had to forcibly restrain my happy squeals, and have since read it about twelve times over 🥹🖤😭

As for your questions:

1. “To the ends of the earth.”

2. Overall, I don’t see him treating a daughter too differently. Though I do see him being more aware of the company she keeps, and in the long term, I envision he’d bring her into his regime for different purposes (such as political manipulation, whereas with Klaus, I envision a loyal, hands-on groundwork sort of asset, if that makes sense)

3. Of course, I’m more than honoured that anyone would feel strongly enough about my story to write their own 🖤😭🖤😭 it’s an overwhelmingly huge compliment 🥹

[adidegmez]

spn s13 spoilers

s13 ep1(lost and found)

if dean thinks cas is really dead then what did they do to his body? did they burn him, bury him or nothing? jack is just a baby right now. winchesters are maybe not superheroes but they are my heroes. dean is just telling the truth?! he is not okay. he lost everyone he cared except sam. sam is calmer than dean. jack is just a sweet little boy. sam is scared. castiel is jacks father(according to jack at least). thats nice. damian as in damian wayne? i dont think i know anyone else named damian. dean'S prayer… he even add crowley he loved him(sometimes). and Chuck he left and he just doesnt care. he left lucifer on earth. everything happened on this Show is because of him. and i still believe if they raise jack right he will be good. no one is born evil. even if lucifer was a bad guy he was an angel he was the angel. jack is half angel and this is not a bad thing. dean said goodbye to everyone cas, kelly, mom and crowley. and crowley i just cant he said his name with the other people he cared about people he respected and its sad that crowley didnt get to see this. Dean accepted the deaths of all of them. How can he do this? They can still return, why not? and mary did return she is not dead.

s13 ep2(the rising son)

im sos sorry dean but sam is right. He is right on every part of this issue. Jack is not bad, your mother is alive, the only way to save her is with Jack's help. i knew jack was watching scooby i thought dean would let him watch. but i think he needs a little time to know jack. sam is nerveous when talking to jack because he never had an experience with kids like dean had. dean would calm jack down he wouldve known what to do but he is mourning the people he lost and he is angry. and that prevents him see the way that sam sees. sam did a good job with jack. i expected dean to say he is batman but i guess its not the time. lucifer is funny sometimes. good job jack. i think dean will understand jack, eventually. i hope that time comes soon.

s13 ep3(patience)

kelly was a great mother. i get deans point of view but he needs to calm down. it's been a long time missouri. she died! jack really cares about deans opinions just like his dad(cas). dean will get over this and he will be nicw to jack eventually, i just hope it wont be late. yes, sam is the best person to understand jack. this is brilliant. i really love how he treats jack. i love sam. i know dean is in pain but sam is right this is resembles to sam's situation. sam deserved to be saved so does jack. and jack didnt do anything wrong yet he has been on earth like a week. and cas mary it wasnt his fault. dean lost them and he is blaming jack. but its lucifers fault. and jack doesnt deserves a this treatment from dean. dean should help sam save jack. i have always been on the same page as dean always but not this time. i hope dean changes his mind soon. because i need both winchesters in the same page. cas! im glad he is back but if he could return does this mean crowley could return too. and i think i finally understand something. Charlie and now rowena are dead and they wont return cause the story doesnt need them anymore. but i need them to return. i always see spoilers but ive never heard rowenas death. and ive never seen anything about charlie's return. but i want them to return. I didn't even like Rowena that much in the beginning but lately I've started to like her. Charlie is a completely different matter, i always loved her, I need her to come back.

s13 ep4(the big empty)

clone wars!!!!!!! i didnt see that coming. clone wars is my favorite star wars Show. i love ahsoka too but anakin is not bad sam. well he turned to vader but he was a good master palpatine manipulated. i hope jack loves clones. they are my favorite thing about star wars. clones are amazing. dean cas sam and crowley closed the door. crowley sacrificed himself. i think i love jack. cas where are you? why does lucifer need mary? Dean needs to pull himself together as soon as possible, he scares Jack, he even upsets Sam. misha is amazing. finally dean complimented jack. i needed that. finally dean is thinking like sam. thank you dean. cas is back.

s13 ep5(advanced thanatology)

yes, something is wrong with sam. dean wears sunglasses indoors. Do the w's represent how many times the winchesters died? did billie become death? she is death thats not good. I wish Dean hadn't killed death. I loved him. thats a good thing afterall. billie let dean live. Dean lost his faith. But when Cas comes, he will be happy. hi cas. welcome back. look in their eyes. team free will together again.

s13 ep6(tombstone)

cas is back. everyone is happy. i missed you cas. and the hugs. jack did it jack brought him back. team free will 2.0 . dean is back. he really missed cas. his eyes are shining. i missed funny dean. Seeing Dean happy makes me happy. cas… all i can think about is his character development. he is an amazing character. he changed so much. his talk with jack was beautiful. hats, dean is really back. dean finally said it, jack is not a monster. i wish he didnt leave. i hope hell come back.

s13 ep7(war of the worlds)

what happened to mary? So will Michael be the villain of this season? i knew it was kevin. hi kevin! i missed you. i think i would prefer lucifer to that Michael. lucifer is so funny. lucifer is back, Mary stayed in the other World. i thought ketch was a clone. I don't remember seeing anything about clones in this series, but for some reason the first thing that comes to my mind is always clones. But it turned out to be an evil twin. i believe that story hes telling the truth. rowena isnt dead right? cas and lucifer, lucifer is so funny. and he is trying to save the World for himself probably. i believed ketch. asmodeus and ketch, they will trouble the Winchesters. If Dean had said yes to Ketch, would Ketch have worked with them instead of Asmodeus?

s13 ep8(the scorpion and the frog)

supernatural really did everything. now there is a heist episode. and it was funny. yes, i missed hopeful dean. it was nice to see that. Didn't Bart say there were copies of the spell? Couldn't they find them? The bus scene reminded me of the scene where they left Charlie on the bus. i missed Charlie.

s13 ep9(the bad place)

i think jack wants to bring mary back not lucifer. Jack gets very happy when he gets a "good job" from Dean. And that makes me happy too. Jack also joined the family. I love him. dean! why did you treat her like that? well at least jack found mary and the winchesters are together. but idk where kaia is.

s13 ep10(wayward sisters)

claire is getting better at hunting. they are on a hunting trip… they said it again. i like it. i love donna and the others, we should see them more. i love jody. Claire's speech was like the beginning of a new series. I researched but they haven't made a mini series, I hope they tell this story here. i love the girls they are amazing.

s13 ep11(breakdown)

the real fbi is here. The beginnings of the episodes always resemble Criminal Minds. but almost the entire episode was really like cm. garcia would find her quickly. i liked doug. i hoped he would become a hunter. doug and donna were good. come on, first dean now sam they lost hope but it was always like this and they believed this job. but now they are in a dark place. i need hopeful winchesters back.

s13 ep12(various & sundry villans)

lucifer is hilarious. omg not the love spell. not dean please. yes sam save dean. hello boys(crowley said it the best). hi rowena. welcome back. how are you alive? they all forgot about adam. cas loves his son. i love how he talks about jack. Rowena asked about Crowley because she wondered if he might pose a risk to her, right? I wish there were nice mother and son scenes. I don't even think Rowena would be upset about Crowley's death, but I wish she would be. she is sad?! rowena is right. when is lucifer ever gone. he always comes back. cas and lucifer made a good team. that was a little brutal. Rowena took the page, didn't she? i thought sam would give her but i didnt think would do it. but he did. lucifer is not dead. We forget the traumas of the Winchesters very quickly, they are not even mentioned. They always show themselves strong, they don't show what's inside them. Dean spent 40 years in hell, Sam was tortured by Lucifer, Dean had to survive in purgatory… I hope Rowena doesn't cause trouble for the boys.

s13 ep13(devil's bargain)

i thought lucifer would let cupid live but he killed him and i suppose he did it just for fun. i forgot about ketch. How did Lucifer not die? i missed kevin. sister jo(daneel ive been waiting for this, i thought we would saw her earlier on the show). Doesn't the prophet know the difference between Cas and Asmodeus? ketch is right. lucifer cant do the things he promised, right? gabriel!!! well, i hope winchesters can save him.

s13 ep14(good intentions)

Dean you are amazing Cas you are amazing too. Mary is not Mary. They're still messing with Jack's head, right? hi bobby! sometimes jack's smiles are sweet but sometimes he scared me he smiles like lucifer sometimes, other than that he is just a sweet boy. and i love him. i love this bobby too but i want old bobby. mary made the deal she brought so much pain to her boys but we saw what the world would be like if she hadn't made that deal, and I think Mary did the right thing. If that deal hadn't happened, we would never have met the boys. cas! i dont like where this is going. i hope cas wont go far. Dean and Sam are Jack's role models, I think he chose very good role models. Whatever it takes… both Dean and Cas go too far. They need to calm down and think a bit. I hope nothing bad happens to them. I'm sorry about Donatello, I didn't like him as much as Kevin, but he was still a good guy. He didn't deserve what happened to him (like all the good characters in the series)

s13 ep15(a most holy man)

While Dean was saying enjoy, he was thinking things like this will be the last time you drive and he was imagining how he would kill that man. yes i totally believe dean would kill for the baby. I heard that that scene was improvised and it's really a perfect scene. I never thought that the blood would come from that man. I thought it would be from someone we knew before or someone very important.

s13 ep16(scoobynatural)

do you know how long i've been waiting for this. I've seen a lot of clips about this episode and I was very curious about it. When I started this season, I was thinking that they were opening a portal to the Scooby universe with Jack. I even thought that they would travel to different universes throughout the season thanks to Jack's portals. just for fun. But when it comes to SPN, sometimes this is only possible for a few episodes. There is a villain in every season and the world is in danger, so team Free Will has to save the World all over again. But did the trickster really die and come back, or was he never dead? i really love when dean is being a fanboy. he genuinely loves them and he shows that he loves them. and i love him for this. i love deans love for scooby-doo. this is one of my favorite episodes now. it was awesome. i love dean. i love sam and cas too but dean has a special place in my heart.

s13 ep17(the thing)

poor gabriel, I hope he can get out of there. Ketch is saving Gabriel right now, even if it's for himself. where is cas? why aent they waiting for him? ketch did some bad things, idk how to feel about him. gabriel is okay for nw with sam. dean really has a death wish. he doesnt care if he dies he only care about the others. yeah this is a nice thing but he would die to protect them and i dont want him to die.

s13 ep18(bring 'em back alive)

Charlie! Until two days ago, I didn't see anything about whether we would see Charlie in this series again but then I learned that we will see the apocalyptic world version of her. I knew she would come but I didn't expect that we would see her now. i missed her. She shouldn't have died. why didnt they wait for cas? i think ketch really cared about mary. gabriel is back! and he left. Asmodeus is dead, right? i hope he wont come back. ketch is complicated. Charlie is acting like our Charlie. i couldnt believe charlie's death and i still cant. she shouldn't have died.

s13 ep19(funeralia)

rowena what are you doing? i thought maybe rowena was trying to get crowley back but then i said she wouldnt do that. is she really trying to get fergus back? if thatsthe truth please let her try. i want crowley back. rowena is kinda right only team free will gets to come back from the dead. naomi is alive. I hope Sam doesn't have to kill Rowena. I started to love Rowena even more. I think there is such a thing as the Winchester Effect. They changed an angel, the king of hell, the most powerful witch and many more people and turned them into better people, and it is great to watch the character development of those characters. They changed Rowena as well as Crowley. I think Rowena loved Crowley. I wish she had the chance to tell Crowley that, or at least show it.

s13 ep20(unfinished business)

Fenrir from Norse mythology, right? I realized the last part was similar to Steve and Tony's argument (Marvel). we'll löse, we'll do that together too… they lost, steve wasn't there. i hope sam could be there when it comes to that. I can't be sure about deaths when it comes to tricksters. I even wondered if Loki replaced Gabriel at the end, but they wouldn't do such a thing because the story would be extended unnecessarily and there is no need for such a thing. i missed our kevin, he wouldnt do that. poor jack. mary sees her as a son:)

s13 ep21(beat the devil)

rowena and gabriel? little awkward but funny. In the beginning ep was hilarious but then it all went dark. rowena didn't run, this time she stayed. she has changed(the winchester effect). lucifer's bar scene was awesome. Sam died and came back, thanks to Lucifer. I'm glad he is back but lucifer brought him. they found jack and mary. dean watched his brother die, again. and the look on his face is telling everything. im glad the brothers are back together.

s13 ep22(exodus)

no, mary. i know you want to help the other World but your boys came for you. you shouldnt do that to them. lucifer is not entirely wrong. yes he does so many bad things but sometimes he does good things. like most of the villains on spn he is complicated. I've seen the scene where Cas and Lucifer drive the bus on the internet before, but I didn't think it was real. I thought it was someone's dream or something. i know lucifer is bad but he tried to do the right thing. he fought Michael, and now he is doing bad things because sam wouldnt let him come with them. sam has hs reasons but now lucifer is going to help Michael nd i think he is not happy about it because h will have brought Michael to the other world, just as his relationship with Jack was getting better. and he knows this will upset his son. Gabriel isn't really dead, right? Otherwise they woudn't have zoomed in on his face. its always good to see bobby but i wish we couldve seen our bobby with the boys and our Charlie.

s13 ep23(let the good times roll)

I would like to see charlie and rowena together. Dean's dream is very beautiful, but with their luck, it is impossible. I wish it could happen, no one deserved retirement more than them. but i dont think they would get a happy ending. This is how I wanted Dean to treat Jack from the beginning. Dean's speech was beautiful. soft dean is my favorite, he is kind and sweet when he needs to be. I love him. I was going to believe in Lucifer because he wanted his son and was doing good things just for him, but in the end he ruined everything again. Dean, you tried so hard to keep Michael from getting to you. I wanna cry. michael has dean, i hope dean can beat him. Is Lucifer really gone? dean… i want to kill Michael. i hope dean will be the one to kill him. The suit and hat suit Dean very well. Just when good things are happening, everything turns bad, and every season, boys cannot find comfort. Can't the kids relax for just one season? There won't be a big bad guy for the end of the season, maybe if they want they can hunt like in the first season or just have a good time together in the

bunker. only 1 season. I wish… but it's impossible. i just want to see them happy.

[dirtsoilmulch]

i love the fnaf book trilogy more dearly than anyone but i just WISH we couldve seen john mourn

charlie, a girl he's loved for years and years, "dying" in front of him. watching her scream and just disappear. finding her again after MONTHS of dealing with her doppelganger only to find out that she isnt real. he never knew her when she was alive. all john knew was the experimental animatronic built from her father's greiving. charlie, the *real* charlie, couldve been anyone. she mightve grown to be someone john despised, or maybe she wouldve been exactly the same. but a human being instead of a machine.

he'll never know. but its a thing that keeps him awake at night, wondering who he couldve loved if only her brother had died. if only freddys had never existed in the first place. but he thinks: would i ever had met her if freddys wasnt opened? he just thinks and thinks and thinks about the endless amount of possibilities, the "what if"s and the alternate timelines until he loses his mind

i like to imagine he searches for sam and mrs emily. for some kind of weird closure, he'd find their home but keep his distance. maybe talking once or twice in a public setting, nothing but small talk. a mother who'd recovered from her ex husband's insanity and a boy, the same age as him, who never really knew he had a sister.

john would meet them once, talk just *once* and he'd return home. he'd gathered everything that was left of charlie- his charlie. her body, her blood, the doll sitting inside her.

all of her abandoned projects, all of the photos, the clothes.

he'd seen her die twice. he was traumatized, afraid of every shadow that moved near her lifeless body he'd been keeping in a guest room.

he lost himself. he'd sort through her items, too afraid of losing even the smallest piece of her. he wept while looking at pictures of her as a toddler, wondering if the pictures were of her or the charlie he knew.

john was driving himself crazy.

[skwistokwarrior]

i had a long talk with my brother about the blues and reds awhile back and i thought i'd share some ideas we brainstormed for a better season (because s15 has so potential gone down the shitter) so uhh scroll while you still can. professional yapping under cut

ok so thinking about it now i don't exactly know how this would work about we had an idea that some of the reds and blues stayed back on chorus (i know, i know, this is already creating plotholes.) we decided on tucker, simmons, and sarge. we also thought itd be cool if tucker was like a cooler version of felix and wash combined. i think he'd train lieutenants☝️ maybe some simmons jensen bonding time i need those nerds to be friends!!! they can geek together. i also think simmons would like to observe chorus and help them recover from the war. and sarge would just stay idk

nooowww let's get into some ideas we had to improve the b&rs

surge, now being a sort of opposite of sarge, gained his rank from deception and tricks and he's actually quite cowardly, he'd risk a whole platoon to save his own ass (but oh no, they fought well and died in honor..) he doesn't really care for command and order, but follows temple because he has to. we came back to this a few months later and also had another idea that he was an odst like sarge but was very traumatized after the war and was very apathetic to life.

genes more street smart than book smart, also a massive trickster. he only pretends to think surge is in charge, he really hates surge (plus i had an idea that sarge DID save surge, but he left surge on his own and gene pushed him in the lava mwahahaha) but despite that he actually sort of idolizes temple, seeing him as the leader surge never was. my guy turned down his leader just to immediately cling onto the first authority figure he views as "different from the others" (different as in worse. so much worse) or he's just the same. cause that joke was pretty funny

i think it'd be interesting if cronut acted more like s1 donut (because the difference is INSANE 😭) not much further explanation on this but also added a point that he's using the b&rs just for the time machine (what for? we didn't exactly get that far.) OH ALSO MAYBE NAMED BAGEL LMAO

so we had two ideas for buckey. he's either huge creepazoid turned up to 11 or a huge religious freak that DESPISES tucker for his sexual nature. swears its gods words telling him to persevere and help the b&rs on their plan. to add onto the first idea, i think he'd have all of tuckers worst traits amplified by like, a lot. the only reason they keep him around is cause he's a sniper (also had a little idea that he was the one who shot wash)

lorenzo is silent. cant speak LOL we had some ideas about him being given freelancer equipment. alsssooooo added onto this with the possibility of the suit being ran by the greed ai (and that the armor was georgia's suit colored brown cause of the georgia & greed theory) plus they had an emp bomb installed as a backup. maybe this ones a stretch

nothing much for loco. i guess i liked his whole "hes not REALLY evil thing" but i wouldve liked to see an evil side of loco, even just a little. oh we had an alternative idea for the machine he was builing, somewhat of a slipspace bomb to lure in unsc ships to boom boom them

i don't really know what to add to biff 😭 i actually liked his character as he was. uuuuuhhhhh i wouldve liked more georgina. pls. i love heryou dont understamd.

OHHH ALSO ALSO we had an idea that when tucker finally gets to temple he pulls out fucking yellow church as an ai fragment. he threatens to destroy it and does his little rant about how the ai fragments were also the cause of all this. to add onto the slipspace bomb idea, the bomb is destroyed at the unfortunate cost of yellow church. bye bye buddy. I KNOW THIS ONES A STRETCH ITS JUST FUNNY

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If tim had been beaten by the joke and then died only to come back to life later he wouldve gone right back to being robin with like 0 hesitation

tim can’t be red hood cause he could never simulate any of the circumstances that led to jason’s death & revival. he just could not, they’re too different. if you set up the basics of the death, tim beaten with a crowbar, left to die crawling towards the exit in an explosion, like that’s still taking out all the betrayal (sheila) & Before (context and background) that made jason the way he is. that’s honestly my main issue with reverse robin aus, you can’t switch them around because it just wouldn’t work. they aren’t the same. sorry to use your ask to go on a tangent, but idk what tim would do. definitely nothing red hood in nature. probably fuck all